Denial.

If you know anything about me, you know I'm a professional denier. It's something I'm working on. I'm pretty terrible at lying, but if I wanted to I could convince myself the sky was orange. (Although, orange is an ugly color... so I would never want to do that.)

For a while now I've been actively (and rather successfully) convincing myself that John isn't moving away, and neither is Kelley. And when Billy comes home he's going to move back into University Garden Apartments and send me my bi-weekly "my back hurts" texts. And we'll all be suffering through classes forever.

Today, I began preparing myself for the truth. John is moving. In just a few short weeks he'll be in Indiana, I'll be in 5 Points, Kelley will be temporarily at home with her family, and Billy will be back for a week or so then off to travel the world again. And when he comes home, it won't be to University Garden Apartments. It'll be to Midtown.

No more watching 3 movies a week with John. Or regular stops on the couch to watch SVU with Kelley. No more back massages in sketchy apartment complexes. All four of us are getting real life, grown up jobs. Sadly, my relationship with these three people--who have become necessary components in my life--will be reduced to mostly Skype conversations. Billy, of course, I'll see more than John and Kelley, but only because he'll be located much closer than they will be. Ideally, I'll make trips to see both Kelley and John in there respective homes, but special trips aren't the same as regular hang-outs.

I know this means I'm going to have the opportunity to meet even more of the beautiful people God created and I'm going to grow some awesome new friendships.

I will certainly still have friends here in Athens and I'm excited about spending time with those people and expanding my relationship with them, but I will miss these three quite a bit.

I'm working on finding the good--I know there's plenty of it. But I'm really going to miss you guys.