I'm kinda surprised at how I haven't really gotten lonely without facebook (even tho it's only been a few days). I think I'm missing stalking people the most. Like when you meet people and become their "friend" (per facebook standards) the next step, naturally, is to stalk them. But this could be good because it will promote more legit conversation and I'm truly a sucker for good conversation. So I guess this is kind of an experiment, and we'll just see how it goes.
I'm getting a lot better at slowing down, and at resting in the Lord. I like it. Although, I kinda feel like everyone else is on fast forward, and I can't decide if that's making me feel left out or.. well, something else that I can't seem to put into words - and I'm assuming it's that one, because I'm not great with words.
I'm working on being neater and cleaner, more organized, focused, and chill. I'm starting to see how this really can affect you spiritually. I mean that literally, when you are calm, your spirit is calm. Not still, because only the Lord, I think, can still your spirit - you should ask Him for that, it's quite, well, indescribable - but calm. There is a lot to be said for being relaxed, having a clear mind, and I think that is completely affected by how you live, how neat and organized you are. If your room and life in general is neat and organized it will organize your mind and you can think more clearly and you are less distracted by the mess that would otherwise clutter your mind and space around you. Maybe that's just for me, it's very possible that there aren't many others who are this way.
I am learning that there is much more to this world than meets the eye. I am being taught this essentially by the Lord through many circumstances that I dare not go into because, honestly, text just can't do it justice and, again, I'm not so great with words.
I believe that God is trying to teach me about trust. Trusting Him. It makes me chuckle a bit because a year ago I was in a completely different place, and trust was something I didn't even have toward myself. Really, the only person who had my trust was God, and even He didn't have much of it. When ever I hear the song Faithful To Me by Jennifer Knapp, it makes me think of that time in my life. I remember being at a friend's place hearing that song and just breaking into sobbs because that is exactly how I felt at that time. I had been completely broken by the Lord and by my circumstances. Everything I thought was right was being torn apart and I didn't understand why. Luckily the Lord is faithful through everything, even when we are not, and He healed me and made me so much stronger than I ever was before. But back to trust. I think the Lord is trying to teach me to trust Him, more than I do. I'm not sure what, specifically He wants me to give to Him (more specific than 'everything'), but I trust that He will reveal that to me when it is time. Oh that perfect timing of His.
Well, I have much more to talk about, but I probably should keep some of it for just me and Him. Also, I have quite a bit more work to do today so I am going to jump on that. -Quickly- I heard from Keaton today. They finally got all their luggage yesterday, Praise the Lord, and a woman gave her life to our Lord yesterday as well, more praise! Please keep him, and everyone he is down there with, in your prayers! And let me know of any prayer requests you have! God Bless!
In Him.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. - Proverbs 3:5
Now, read that again, like you've never read it before. : )
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